Yep - I know what your thinking......this guy couldn't even follow through on his sub-par blog.  A lot has changed since last time. Turned 46 yesterday. Changed jobs back in Oct. of '11. And this unexplained smile and optimism somewhat apparent on my face is the result of finally having a job I love. I was beginning to wonder if it was all a myth. You talk to folks who say they love what they do but I never really believed them because I'd never been there myself. Thought it was impossible - maybe an Urban Myth (or maybe more appropriately a Suburban Myth?).

One of the few redeeming qualities of Facebook is that on your birthday you get these nice messages from 100 or so of our closest friends. And yes, that is nice.  But 30% of them you have no idea who they are (I even asked my sister - if she can't remember them, they never really existed) and 75% you wouldn't know if you bump into each other on the street. And quite frankly, where the hell are these people the other 364 days of the year??  Like most of you, I'm about this close to dropping FB but I'm waiting on that one person to contact me whom with I'd  really like to reconnect.  Who that person is I have no idea but I'm sure (just like you are) that they're out there.

I know you've seen the infomercial about this Insanity workout. I think they say it's the hardest workout ever put on DVD. What's to say a 46 year old overweight guy can't just jump right in and start doing the hardest workout ever put on DVD?  A 46 year old overweight guy that does not exercise consistently. So of course I ordered it with the echoes of my wife laughing in the background (or maybe that was my subconscious?).  And for two and a half weeks I was on fire.  Did it every day (not the entire workout - only the freaks on the DVD could do that) but I did as much as I could and everyday was able to do more. I lost 10 lbs and followed their nutrition guide religiously. I was a man possessed. I was so proud of myself and so was everyone else. My wife was astonished. She could not believe that I was sticking with it (and do have a certain history) and the results I was getting.  So what did I do after two and a half weeks?  I decided I needed a break. It was hard.  Physically the most difficult thing I've ever done. I thought I could take a couple days off and then I'd start right back. Well, here it is two week later and I'm still sitting on the couch. I've lost all of my momentum.  For me to think I could take a break - I should have know better. I've probably gained the weight back -  I'm too afraid to weigh myself.

I wonder how long it really takes to know yourself. After 46 years you'd think I'd have an idea. I should have well known that I could not stop the workout.  I was in the process of changing my life, losing weight and feeling good about myself. I know that I can't change things in two weeks, but I was certainly on my way. I just ate a healthy breakfast. I'm going to go do Insanity right now.